{"id":9889,"date":"2014-02-07T15:29:25","date_gmt":"2014-02-07T13:29:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/?p=9889"},"modified":"2014-02-07T15:29:25","modified_gmt":"2014-02-07T13:29:25","slug":"pervanenin-duasi-makbul-olsa-gerek","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/?p=9889","title":{"rendered":"Pervanenin Duas\u0131 Makbul Olsa Gerek"},"content":{"rendered":"

Pervanenin Duas\u0131 Makbul Olsa Gerek<\/h4>\n

Hatice E\u011filmez Kaya<\/em><\/h5>\n
\u201c\u00d6len hayvan imi\u015f \u00e2\u015f\u0131klar \u00f6lmez\u201d <\/em><\/h5>\n
Me\u015fhur bir te\u015fbihtir. \u00c2\u015f\u0131klar pervaneye, sevdikleri \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011fa benzetilir. Bu y\u00fczden ben ne anlat\u0131rsam bu yaz\u0131da, hangi h\u00e2lden s\u00f6z edersem bilinsin ki her biri pervaneye de\u011fil \u00e2\u015f\u0131\u011fa dairdir.<\/em><\/h5>\n
\u00a0Pervane acz i\u00e7inde \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011fa bakt\u0131. Onu aciz k\u0131lan i\u00e7indeki, sonsuz bir ate\u015fe benzeyen a\u015fkt\u0131. Pervane d\u0131\u015f\u0131ndaki ate\u015ften de\u011fil i\u00e7indeki ate\u015ften yanmaktayd\u0131. E\u011fer bu kadar \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olmasayd\u0131 \u00f6ylesine aciz, \u00f6ylesine hayran kalmayacakt\u0131. Acziyeti ve hayranl\u0131\u011f\u0131 onu divane k\u0131lmayacakt\u0131. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fini unutarak, gelecek hayallerine g\u00f6zlerini k\u00f6r ederek pervane, sevdi\u011fini yak\u0131ndan g\u00f6rme sevdas\u0131na r\u00e2m olmayacakt\u0131.<\/em><\/h5>\n
Kimilerince pervane ac\u0131nacak bir varl\u0131k zannolunsa da asl\u0131nda k\u00e2inat\u0131n belki de en \u015fansl\u0131 mahl\u00fbkudur. Yand\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in ac\u0131y\u0131n\u0131z ona. Fakat kendisine, daha de\u011ferli bir nesnenin yarat\u0131lmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan emin oldu\u011fumuz a\u015fk bah\u015fedildi\u011fi i\u00e7in g\u0131pta ediniz. Hangi sevab\u0131 i\u015fledi bu zavall\u0131 fakat ayn\u0131 zamanda mucize varl\u0131k? Hangi ba\u015far\u0131ya imza att\u0131? Ki gelince c\u00fcmle dertlerin son buldu\u011fu a\u015fka lay\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/em><\/h5>\n
\u015eairlerin \u201c\u015feyda\u201d dedikleri b\u00fclb\u00fclden daha da \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131nd\u0131r pervane. Dikenden \u00e7ok daha tehlikeli bir katili oldu\u011fu halde vuslattan ka\u00e7\u0131nmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in. \u00dcstelik bu katil ayn\u0131 zamanda sevgilisi, sebepsizce g\u00f6n\u00fcl verdi\u011fi varl\u0131k oldu\u011fu halde, yanaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6re g\u00f6re, \u00f6lece\u011fini bile bile att\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in kendisini sevgilisinin mahalline. Son bir kez ya\u015famas\u0131n\u0131n ve \u00f6lmesinin tek sebebi olan \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011fa bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, pi\u015fmanl\u0131ktan eser olmamal\u0131 onun maddeten k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck manada kocaman olan kalbinde. Budur \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n tam olarak tarifi.<\/em><\/h5>\n
B\u00fclb\u00fcl gibi feryat etmez pervane. Sessizce \u00e7eker \u00e7ilesini, sessizce keyfini s\u00fcrer pahas\u0131z a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131n. \u00d6lmeden \u00f6nce \u00f6lebilmek yetene\u011fine sahip oldu\u011fundan daima susar. Yanarken bile \u201cYand\u0131m!\u201d demez. Sa\u011fl\u0131kl\u0131 her g\u00f6z onun h\u00e2lini g\u00f6r\u00fcr, i\u015fleyen her ak\u0131l onun k\u00fcle d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcne \u015fahitlik eder de o s\u00f6ylemez hi\u00e7 kimseye yand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. \u201cYand\u0131m!\u201d deyip figan eylemek ancak \u015fairlere ve b\u00fclb\u00fcllere mahsustur.<\/em><\/h5>\n
\u015eu \u00e2lemde ya\u015fay\u0131p her dem sefa s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f bir\u00e7ok insan var. Sefas\u0131 \u00e7ok cefas\u0131 yok bir hayat nimet kabilinden gelebilir belki de bizlere. Oysa \u201cOl mah\u00eeler ki derya i\u00e7redir deryay\u0131 bilmezler.\u201d misali sefada pi\u015fmeyi bilmeyenler bir \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu \u00e7i\u011f kal\u0131rlar. Pervane \u00f6yle midir ya? Cefas\u0131 onun hem m\u00fcr\u015fididir hem de oca\u011f\u0131. Bu m\u00fcr\u015fitle pi\u015fer ha, pi\u015fer, pi\u015fer\u2026 Bu ocakta yanar ha, yanar, yanar\u2026 Yand\u0131k\u00e7a susar, sustuk\u00e7a yanar. Sonra da kendi nefsinden ba\u015fkas\u0131yla zoru olmayan muhte\u015fem ve m\u00fcbarek bir varl\u0131\u011fa d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. \u0130\u015fte bu y\u00fczden pervanenin duas\u0131 makbul olsa gerek. Hatas\u0131, c\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc bulunsa bile.<\/em><\/h5>\n
Cesur bir varl\u0131k olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fcm pervaneyi. Cesaret kimde olur? Hem cahilde, hem \u00e2rifte hem de akl\u0131n\u0131 esen yele terk etmi\u015f bir pervanede. Cahil, ate\u015ften korkmaz \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc tehlikesinden bihaberdir. Yakla\u015f\u0131rsa yanaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmez. Zehirli bir y\u0131lan\u0131 oyuncak san\u0131p eline alan \u00e7ocuk gibi\u2026 \u00c2rif, ate\u015ften korkmaz \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ancak ate\u015fte pi\u015febilece\u011fi hakikatine vak\u0131ft\u0131r. Pi\u015fmek u\u011fruna yanmay\u0131 g\u00f6ze al\u0131r. Fedak\u00e2rl\u0131k yapmadan nimete kavu\u015famayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark eder. Peki ya pervane? Hangi akla hizmet ate\u015fe atar tatl\u0131 can\u0131n\u0131? Oysa o, ne cahil gibi habersizdir olacaklardan ne de \u00e2rif gibi hesab\u0131n\u0131 kitab\u0131n\u0131 yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r yanman\u0131n. Sadece \u00e2\u015f\u0131kt\u0131r o. \u00c2\u015f\u0131k oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in de divane.<\/em><\/h5>\n
Fazlas\u0131yla ak\u0131ll\u0131 insanlar \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olamazlar gibi geliyor bana. Bu a\u015fk ister ilahi olsun\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 – ki ne kutsald\u0131r o- ister be\u015feri. Fark etmez. Hassas ve yabani bir ku\u015fa benzer a\u015fk, her g\u00f6nle konmaz. \u00dcstelik \u00f6yle b\u00fcy\u00fck, \u00f6yle a\u011f\u0131r bir histir ki her g\u00f6nle s\u0131\u011fmaz. Baz\u0131 g\u00f6n\u00fcllerde yer bulsa bile kendisine a\u015fk, ak\u0131l onu kovalar. \u201cBa\u015fka diyarlara git. Burada ben var\u0131m. \u0130kimiz bir yerde eylenemeyiz\u201d der.\u00a0 Kurdu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn bir kez. Kurnazl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla tan\u0131n\u0131r. G\u00fczeller g\u00fczeli kuzuya \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olur mu hi\u00e7? E\u011fer \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olursa kuzuya, onu k\u0131y\u0131p da yiyebilir mi?<\/em><\/h5>\n
\u00c7aresizli\u011fine a\u011flar\u0131m bazen pervanenin, darda kalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na. I\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n cazibesine kap\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in \u00e7aresizdir o. \u00d6l\u00fcme ve yanmaya ko\u015farken \u00e7aresizlerin en \u00e7aresizidir. Farkl\u0131 bir ihtimal gelmez akl\u0131na yanmaktan ba\u015fka. Kavu\u015fabilmek i\u00e7in yanmak, sevdi\u011fiyle ayn\u0131 varl\u0131k olabilmek i\u00e7in \u00f6lmek yeg\u00e2ne tercihtir pervaneye sunulan.<\/em><\/h5>\n
Pervane yanar yanmas\u0131na ya a\u015fk\u0131n ger\u00e7ek anlam\u0131n\u0131 ve de\u011ferini ancak o bilir. G\u00f6sterdi\u011fi fedak\u00e2rl\u0131k onun g\u00f6zlerini bamba\u015fka renklere kar\u015f\u0131 duyarl\u0131 k\u0131lar. Bamba\u015fka diyarlar\u0131 g\u00f6rmesini sa\u011flar g\u00f6zlerinin. Bizim a\u011flad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131za a\u011flamaz pervane, bizim g\u00fcld\u00fcklerimize g\u00fclmez art\u0131k. G\u00fcndelik meraklar\u0131m\u0131z onun g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fcn kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7almaz. Yaralanmaz bizim yaraland\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131zla, sa\u011fl\u0131k bulmaz bizim \u015fifa bulduklar\u0131m\u0131zda.<\/em><\/h5>\n
Pervane i\u00e7in vuslat ve \u00f6l\u00fcm e\u015f anlaml\u0131d\u0131r. Bu y\u00fczden \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc bir son olarak g\u00f6rmez. Bu y\u00fczden \u00f6l\u00fcmden korkmaz. \u00d6l\u00fcm gecesini \u015eeb-i Aruz diye adland\u0131ran Mevlana pervaneli\u011fini ispat eder bu tespitiyle. Pervane \u00f6lmekten tarifi imk\u00e2ns\u0131z bir haz al\u0131r. Hasret de g\u00fczeldir onun i\u00e7in kavu\u015fmak da. Tahamm\u00fcl etmeyi de sever o, y\u00e2re do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcmeyi de. Bulman\u0131n hikmetini de kavram\u0131\u015ft\u0131r araman\u0131n da.\u00a0 Aksi takdirde bu kadar g\u00f6z\u00fc pek, bu kadar karars\u0131z ve bu kadar bo\u015f vermi\u015f olabilir miydi \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda?<\/em><\/h5>\n
Sabr\u0131n, \u015f\u00fckr\u00fcn ve zikrin timsali olmak i\u00e7in cihana gelmi\u015f pervane. Severken ve sevdi\u011finin etraf\u0131nda d\u00f6nerken sabreder o. Sabrettik\u00e7e olgunla\u015f\u0131r. Etrafa bamba\u015fka bir pencereden bakmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenir. Onun penceresinden bak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131k yoktur. Sadece sevmek vard\u0131r hem de kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k beklemeden. Kanatlar\u0131 havada p\u0131r p\u0131r ettik\u00e7e, y\u00fcre\u011fi g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcnde dalgal\u0131 bir deniz gibi kabard\u0131k\u00e7a sevdi\u011fini zikreder pervane. B\u00f6ylelikle onu g\u00f6ren herkes sevdi\u011fi varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 hat\u0131rlar. Yang\u0131na d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde ise \u015f\u00fckreder pervane. Ba\u015fkalar\u0131 i\u00e7in felaket olarak bilinen son, onun i\u00e7in hasretle beklenilen, ula\u015fmak hayalleri kurulan bir menzildir.<\/em><\/h5>\n
A\u015fk\u0131 maddede arayanlar\u0131n de\u011fil, manada arayanlar\u0131n dostudur pervane. Onun fedak\u00e2rl\u0131\u011f\u0131, bedenden uzak bir diyar\u0131n meyvesi olan m\u00fcptelal\u0131\u011f\u0131, kendinden ge\u00e7mi\u015fli\u011fi tuhaf g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr d\u00fcnyaya madde penceresinden bakanlara. Bu y\u00fczden olsa gerek ancak tasavvufla bir par\u00e7a da olsa yak\u0131nl\u0131k kuran \u015fairler pervane te\u015fbihinden yararlan\u0131rlar \u015fiirlerinde.<\/em><\/h5>\n
Kainatta de\u011fi\u015fmez hakikatlerden birisi de a\u015fk\u0131n hudut tan\u0131maz de\u011feri.\u00a0 Yunus\u2019un \u201cBallar bal\u0131n\u0131 buldum, kovan\u0131m ya\u011fma olsun\u201d derken s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc etti\u011fi bal ilahi a\u015fk\u0131n ta kendisidir. Zira Hakk\u2019a \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olan kullar\u00a0 \u201cHu\u201d deyip d\u00f6nerler. Hak a\u015fk\u0131yla yan\u0131p, Hak a\u015fk\u0131yla s\u00f6nerler. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n nimetlerine d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakmad\u0131klar\u0131 gibi \u00f6telerdeki vaatler i\u00e7in de \u00e7aba sarf etmezler. Onlar\u0131n tek bir emeli vard\u0131r. Y\u00e2r\u2019e kavu\u015fmak.<\/em><\/h5>\n
I\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n ne oldu\u011funu tam olarak bilmek i\u00e7in daha da \u00e7ok yakla\u015fmak gerekir ona. Pervane misali \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ine kendini atmak, onda yok olmak gerekir. Hakikati bulabilmenin birinci ko\u015fulu yanmak olmal\u0131. Bu y\u00fczden yanmak pervanenin aln\u0131na ezelde yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f. Yaz\u0131lan\u0131n tecelli etmesinden ibarettir onun i\u00e7in vuslat\u0131n halesiyle tutu\u015fmak. Kavu\u015fmak hasret \u00e7ekmekten daha zor geliyor olmal\u0131 ona.<\/em><\/h5>\n
\u00a0Pervanenin zerre kadar bedenine hapsolup kalm\u0131\u015f k\u00fcrelere e\u015f bir tela\u015f\u0131 var Bu tela\u015f ince bir s\u0131z\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131r benim y\u00fcre\u011fimde. Oradan oraya vurur kendisini pervane, \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n etraf\u0131nda d\u00f6ner durur \u00f6lmeden biraz \u00f6nce. Acele bir i\u015fi varm\u0131\u015f gibi h\u0131zl\u0131, kavu\u015famamaktan korkuyormu\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na endi\u015felidir son anlar\u0131nda. Duadan ve sevdi\u011fini zikirden vaz ge\u00e7meden hem de. Bu y\u00fczden her pervanenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde selam durmak gerekir belki de.<\/em><\/p>\n

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