{"id":9066,"date":"2013-10-27T10:07:01","date_gmt":"2013-10-27T08:07:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/?p=9066"},"modified":"2013-10-27T10:21:31","modified_gmt":"2013-10-27T08:21:31","slug":"bir-sandik-ani","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/?p=9066","title":{"rendered":"B\u0130R SANDIK ANI"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>B\u0130R SANDIK ANI<\/p>\n

Ak\u015fam s\u00fcp\u00fcrmek \u00fczereydi g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fc ufkun keskin taraf\u0131na. Ve bir kad\u0131n ya\u015fl\u0131 kay\u0131nvalidesinin an\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcp\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc kap\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcne, doldurup ceviz sand\u0131\u011f\u0131na. Ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n bulutlar\u0131 ba\u011flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 g\u00f6z kapaklar\u0131na, s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordu tuzlu damlalar. Ne dili d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inde \u201cDur, yapma!\u201d demeye, ne g\u00fcc\u00fc yetiyordu al\u0131p geri getirmeye. \u00c7ok ya\u015fl\u0131yd\u0131, defalarca ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi fel\u00e7ten y\u00fcr\u00fcyemiyordu art\u0131k. S\u00fcr\u00fcnerek gitmek istedi\u011fi yere gidebiliyordu. Gelininin s\u00fcr\u00fcyerek g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n pe\u015finden s\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fc o da, kap\u0131n\u0131n e\u015fi\u011finden ge\u00e7erken zorlansa da ba\u015farm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 i\u015fte.<\/em><\/p>\n

Buru\u015f buru\u015f elleri titriyordu, bir s\u00fcre ok\u015fad\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Vars\u0131n dili olmas\u0131n g\u00f6n\u00fcl diliyle s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu diyeceklerini. \u201cA\u00e7\u0131l susam\u201d dese a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r m\u0131yd\u0131 acaba, a\u00e7\u0131lmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131n fark\u0131ndayd\u0131, yine \u00e7aba sarf etmesi gerekiyordu. Kapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n kilitli olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 umuyordu, derin derin nefes alarak uzatt\u0131 ellerini sand\u0131\u011fa do\u011fru. Zor da olsa a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 sand\u0131k. K\u0131rk yama dedikleri boh\u00e7alar g\u00f6z\u00fcne g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, \u00fcst\u00fcnde k\u0131rk an\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yordu her bir par\u00e7a.<\/em><\/p>\n

Mavi \u00fcst\u00fcnde beyaz \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri olan krep par\u00e7a dikkatini \u00e7ekmi\u015fti \u00f6nce. Bu boh\u00e7an\u0131n \u00e7o\u011funlu\u011funu maviler olu\u015fturuyordu zaten. Mavinin her tonu vard\u0131 sanki. Ege\u2019nin, Akdeniz\u2019in, Karadeniz\u2019in ve Marmara\u2019n\u0131n mavisi vard\u0131. Ya\u011fmurlu havalar\u0131n, g\u00fcne\u015fli zamanlar\u0131n g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc mavisi vard\u0131. Bursa\u2019daki \u00e7inili t\u00fcrbenin, \u0130zmir\u2019deki papa\u011fanlar\u0131n, dola\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u0131rlardaki mine \u00e7i\u00e7eklerinin mavisiydi. Umutlar\u0131n\u0131n rengiydi, belki de en \u00e7ok ondan kullanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 mavileri. <\/em><\/p>\n

Babas\u0131 \u00fcst d\u00fczey bir devlet memuruydu, annesi bir pa\u015fan\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131, saray terbiyesiyle b\u00fcy\u00fctm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131. Ama o Cumhuriyet k\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131. Onun i\u00e7in k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 ve beyaz\u0131n da rengi de\u011ferliydi ve di\u011fer boh\u00e7alar\u0131nda da a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131kl\u0131 olarak kullanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Menek\u015felerin moru, ormanlar\u0131n ye\u015fili o kadar uyumlu birle\u015ftirilmi\u015fti ki par\u00e7a par\u00e7a, g\u00f6renler mest oluyordu. Neler yoktu ki i\u00e7inde ilk doldurdu\u011fu zamanlar, \u015fimdi bir \u015fey kalmasa da. Talan edilmi\u015fti y\u0131llar \u00f6nce. Emekleri, umutlar\u0131, hayalleri ekmek paras\u0131 i\u00e7in sat\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 kocas\u0131 taraf\u0131ndan.<\/em><\/p>\n

G\u00f6n\u00fcld\u00fc i\u015fte, laf anlatamazd\u0131 ki, bir \u00e7ift ye\u015fil g\u00f6ze kapt\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 kendisini, ak\u0131p gitmi\u015fti y\u00fcre\u011fi \u015felaleden akan su gibi. \u015ealvar ve yelekten ba\u015fka bir \u015fey giymeyen kad\u0131nlar\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u00f6ye beyaz gelinli\u011fiyle, ipek duva\u011f\u0131yla gelin gitmi\u015fti, anne ve babas\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn itirazlar\u0131na, k\u00fcsk\u00fcnl\u00fcklerine ra\u011fmen. \u00c7e\u015fit \u00e7e\u015fit topuklu ayakkab\u0131larla k\u00f6y\u00fcn \u00e7amurlu yollar\u0131nda y\u00fcr\u00fcyemiyordu, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck narin ayaklar\u0131 kara lastikle tan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Dalga dalga r\u00fczg\u00e2rda u\u00e7u\u015fan sa\u00e7lar\u0131 bir yazman\u0131n alt\u0131nda toplanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Reng\u00e2renk ipek tuvaletleri k\u00f6ydeki k\u0131zlara gelinlik olmu\u015ftu, makyaj malzemeleri bir teneke sobada k\u00f6m\u00fcr. Sap y\u0131\u011fd\u0131, saman savurdu, y\u0131\u011f\u0131n yapt\u0131, d\u00f6ven s\u00fcrd\u00fc becerebildi\u011fince. Cilal\u0131 temiz t\u0131rnaklar\u0131 tezekle tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131, parf\u00fcm kokan bedeni ah\u0131r gibi koktu. Pi\u015fmanl\u0131k duymu\u015f muydu, kendisi de karar veremiyordu buna. Geri d\u00f6nemeyece\u011fini, katlanmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini biliyordu sadece.<\/em><\/p>\n

Bursa\u2019da Necati Bey K\u0131z Enstit\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc bitirmi\u015fti, becerikliydi, bildiklerini \u00f6\u011fretti k\u00f6y kad\u0131nlar\u0131na, okuma yazmay\u0131, diki\u015f dikmeyi, k\u0131zlara nak\u0131\u015f yapmas\u0131n\u0131. K\u00f6y ilerledik\u00e7e kendisi geride kal\u0131yordu art\u0131k. Efsunlanm\u0131\u015f sitemleri saklad\u0131 bir defterin aras\u0131nda dize dize. \u015eimdi sand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda onlar vard\u0131, ailesinden gelen k\u0131rg\u0131n mektuplar ve yamal\u0131 diye kimsenin be\u011fenmedi\u011fi bo\u015f boh\u00e7alar.<\/em><\/p>\n

At\u0131lmamal\u0131yd\u0131, en az\u0131ndan kendisi g\u00f6rmemeliydi at\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Kalbinde k\u0131yamet vakti ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bu ak\u015fam. An\u0131lar\u0131n s\u00fcng\u00fcs\u00fc saplanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcne.<\/em>
\n\u201dNeler g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, neler ya\u015fad\u0131m, ne oldum\u201d dedi sessizce sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda. Soluk mavi bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 bu\u011fuland\u0131 biraz daha.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klara, ya\u015fananlara \u015fahitlik eden cans\u0131z da olsa her \u015feye sayg\u0131 g\u00f6sterilmeliydi oysa. An\u0131lar ve manevi de\u011ferler al\u0131nmazd\u0131 birka\u00e7 kuru\u015fa. H\u00e2lbuki gelini atm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 i\u015fte kap\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcne, satmaya bile gerek duymadan. Fazlal\u0131kt\u0131 evde, d\u00f6kl\u00fcmd\u00fc ona g\u00f6re, aynen ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n gibi.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n kenar\u0131nda yaslanm\u0131\u015f kad\u0131na seslendi torunlar\u0131, \u201cBabaanne gel art\u0131k hava karard\u0131, babam seni orada g\u00f6rmesin\u201d. Duymad\u0131 ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n, duyamazd\u0131 da.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Ak\u015fam s\u00fcp\u00fcrmek \u00fczereydi g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fc ufkun keskin taraf\u0131na. Ve bir kad\u0131n ya\u015fl\u0131 kay\u0131nvalidesinin an\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcp\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc kap\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcne, doldurup ceviz sand\u0131\u011f\u0131na. Ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n bulutlar\u0131 ba\u011flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 g\u00f6z kapaklar\u0131na, s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordu tuzlu damlalar. Ne dili d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inde \u201cDur, yapma!\u201d demeye, ne g\u00fcc\u00fc yetiyordu al\u0131p geri getirmeye. \u00c7ok ya\u015fl\u0131yd\u0131, defalarca ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi fel\u00e7ten y\u00fcr\u00fcyemiyordu art\u0131k. S\u00fcr\u00fcnerek gitmek istedi\u011fi yere gidebiliyordu. Gelininin s\u00fcr\u00fcyerek g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n pe\u015finden s\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fc o da, kap\u0131n\u0131n e\u015fi\u011finden ge\u00e7erken zorlansa da ba\u015farm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 i\u015fte.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[377,378],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-9066","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-anilarafetincekirat","category-oykulerafetincekirat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9066","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=9066"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9066\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=9066"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=9066"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=9066"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}