{"id":8947,"date":"2013-10-23T10:38:59","date_gmt":"2013-10-23T08:38:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/?p=8947"},"modified":"2013-10-23T10:38:59","modified_gmt":"2013-10-23T08:38:59","slug":"atlikarinca","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/?p=8947","title":{"rendered":"ATLIKARINCA"},"content":{"rendered":"
\"\"<\/a>ATLIKARINCA<\/p>\n

Y\u0131llar\u0131n ac\u0131lar\u0131 s\u0131z\u0131yordu y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki derin \u00e7izgilerden. G\u00f6zleri demir atm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Marmara\u2019ya, neredeyse bir asra yakla\u015fm\u0131\u015f zaman \u00f6tesinden. An\u0131lar\u0131 gibi bulan\u0131kt\u0131 bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131. \u00d6fke miydi i\u00e7indekiler, \u00f6zlem mi, yorgunluk mu belli de\u011fildi. Da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, beyazlam\u0131\u015f, \u00e7at\u0131k ka\u015flar\u0131 \u00f6fkeyi hissettiriyordu. Neden \u00f6fkeleniyordu acaba? Daha dikkatli bakmal\u0131yd\u0131m, g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in, g\u00f6rebilmek i\u00e7in.<\/em><\/p>\n

Y\u00fcz\u00fcne vuran \u0131\u015f\u0131kta bir \u00e7ocuk canlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 adeta. Kumral bukleli sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 tutturdu\u011fu k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kurdelesi titriyordu d\u00f6nd\u00fck\u00e7e. Bir bayram sabah\u0131 atl\u0131kar\u0131ncadayd\u0131, d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu r\u00fczg\u00e2rla yar\u0131\u015farak. O d\u00f6n\u00fcyor, zaman d\u00f6n\u00fcyor, gelenler geldi\u011fi yere d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu, o g\u00fcn babas\u0131n\u0131n d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc gibi. Tela\u015fla gelen day\u0131s\u0131, durdurup mutlulu\u011fu, indirmi\u015fti ac\u0131 dolu d\u00fcnyaya. Kalabal\u0131k evlerinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde belki de ilk kez g\u00f6zlerindeki \u0131\u015f\u0131k s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n buklesi gibi. K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 f\u0131rf\u0131rl\u0131 elbisesinin rengi solmu\u015ftu birden, g\u00f6remiyordu parlak \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131, y\u00fcz\u00fc de \u00f6yleydi. \u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcmleyemedi\u011fi nedenle…r kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordu kafas\u0131n\u0131. \u015eimdiki y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc kaplayan k\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131klara benziyordu ayn\u0131. Nereden gelip nerede bitti\u011fi belli olmayan \u00e7izgiler bir anda o bayram sabah\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131 benim g\u00f6z\u00fcmde.<\/em><\/p>\n

Zor y\u0131llar ge\u00e7mi\u015fti pe\u015f pe\u015fe, \u00e7ocuk\u00e7a a\u015fklar ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, bitmi\u015fti masmavi g\u00f6zlerinde. \u0130\u00e7indeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck titre\u015fimler unutturmu\u015ftu bazen s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131. Ama sadece bazen\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

O g\u00fcn bindi\u011fi atl\u0131kar\u0131nca gibiydi hayat, d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu s\u00fcrekli. Bazen mutluluktu g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, bazen hasetle bakan insanlar, bazen de karanl\u0131k y\u00fczler, ayn\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm gibi. <\/em><\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc isyanlar okunuyordu y\u00fcz\u00fcnden, belli ki ses \u00e7\u0131karamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 haks\u0131zl\u0131klara, yoklu\u011fa, itilmi\u015fli\u011fe. Burnunun duru\u015fu anlat\u0131yordu bunu bana. G\u00fczel bir kad\u0131n oldu\u011fu bu ya\u015fta bile belliydi, zaman\u0131nda havada duran burnu yeri g\u00f6steriyordu \u015fimdi. \u201cAz kald\u0131\u201d diyordu sanki.<\/em><\/p>\n

S\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 kapal\u0131yd\u0131 dudaklar\u0131, al\u0131\u015fk\u0131nd\u0131 belli ki susmaya. Konu\u015fmaya susam\u0131\u015f gibiydi, \u00e7atlak ve kuru. Ne s\u00f6yleyecekti ki konu\u015fabilse. Belki de hor g\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc y\u0131llarca, dayak yemi\u015f yemek istediklerini yiyemese de. G\u00f6zlerinden sonra en b\u00fcy\u00fck ac\u0131 izi solgun dudaklar\u0131nda kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/em><\/p>\n

Yine bir bayram sabah\u0131yd\u0131, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 izliyordu. \u201cKim bilir hangi k\u0131z\u0131n hayat\u0131 s\u00f6necek bayram\u0131 ya\u015farken?\u201d diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki derin \u00e7izgilere inat ge\u00e7mi\u015fin silik izleri vard\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcnde.<\/em>
\n Lunaparkta atl\u0131kar\u0131nca d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu, d\u00fcnya gibi, gelenlerin gidece\u011fi gibi, r\u00fczg\u00e2ra inat, zorluklara inat. Ba\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu kad\u0131n\u0131n, atl\u0131kar\u0131nca gibi.<\/em><\/p>\n

Afet \u0130nce K\u0131rat<\/em>
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Y\u0131llar\u0131n ac\u0131lar\u0131 s\u0131z\u0131yordu y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki derin \u00e7izgilerden. G\u00f6zleri demir atm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Marmara\u2019ya, neredeyse bir asra yakla\u015fm\u0131\u015f zaman \u00f6tesinden. An\u0131lar\u0131 gibi bulan\u0131kt\u0131 bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131. \u00d6fke miydi i\u00e7indekiler, \u00f6zlem mi, yorgunluk mu belli de\u011fildi. Da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, beyazlam\u0131\u015f, \u00e7at\u0131k ka\u015flar\u0131 \u00f6fkeyi hissettiriyordu. Neden \u00f6fkeleniyordu acaba? Daha dikkatli bakmal\u0131yd\u0131m, g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in, g\u00f6rebilmek i\u00e7in.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[375],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8947","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-denemelerafetincekirat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8947","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8947"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8947\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8947"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8947"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8947"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}