{"id":157,"date":"2010-12-25T09:31:52","date_gmt":"2010-12-25T09:31:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/?p=157"},"modified":"2011-07-23T12:31:16","modified_gmt":"2011-07-23T10:31:16","slug":"herkes-bilsin-askimi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/?p=157","title":{"rendered":"Herkes Bilsin A\u015fk\u0131m\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"color: #ff00ff; font-family: comic sans ms,sand;\"><strong>Herkes Bilsin A\u015fk\u0131m\u0131<br \/>\n<\/strong><\/span><span style=\"font-size: x-small; color: #000000; font-family: verdana,geneva;\">Sen bahar\u0131n ya\u011fmurla getirdi\u011fi \u00f6zlemdin i\u00e7imdeki. Sen \u00e7i\u011f tanesi kadar saf ve ne oldu\u011funu asla anlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, yan\u0131md\u0131n ve denize d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp de \u0131slanmaktan korkutan bir sava\u015ft\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011fimde.<br \/>\n\u00d6zlemini her gece koynumda hissetti\u011fim ve hi\u00e7bir zaman seni sevmekten vazge\u00e7medi\u011fim i\u00e7in \u00f6zeldin. Sonra g\u00f6zlerle y\u00fcz\u00fcme bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ya da her kavga edi\u015fimizde f\u0131rt\u0131nalar kopard\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011fimde, sen hi\u00e7 bilmezdin. Benim susu\u015fum senin ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 desteklerdi beklide. Ger\u00e7ekten s\u00f6yleyemedi\u011fim s\u00f6zlerle dolu kalbim ve sen her seferinde g\u00fcn bat\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 an\u0131msatt\u0131n bana, onun kadar g\u00fczel, onun kadar huzur verici. Asl\u0131nda hem onun kadar uzakt\u0131n bana hem de yak\u0131n\u0131mda hissettim seni, uzan\u0131p tutacak kadar yak\u0131n\u0131mda.<br \/>\nUzaktan sevmeyi hi\u00e7 sevmiyordum ama uzaktan sevmek zorunday\u0131m. Kimse bilmemeliydi seni sevdi\u011fimi, sonra kopup giderdin benden, arkada\u015f bil kalmazd\u0131n bilirdim. Bir sevdi\u011fin vard\u0131 konu\u015furlarken duymu\u015ftum. Sonrada sen anlatt\u0131n bana sevgilini.<br \/>\nHi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim birinden nefret ettim onu sevdi\u011fin i\u00e7in. Ve sonra dayanamaz oldu g\u00f6nl\u00fcm bu a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011fa. Seni g\u00f6rmekten ac\u0131maya, kanamaya ba\u015flad\u0131. T\u00fckeni\u015f ba\u015flad\u0131 benim i\u00e7in \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn bahar\u0131nda.<br \/>\n\u00c7ok tatl\u0131yd\u0131n o g\u00fclen koskoca g\u00f6zlerinle r\u00fcyalar\u0131mda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm seni. Kumsalda dola\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, ay \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda dans etti\u011fimizi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ve her ger\u00e7e\u011fe d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmde hayaller birazdaha uzakla\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131 benden. Art\u0131k biliyordum seni benden ay\u0131racak hi\u00e7bir \u015fey kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Y\u00fcre\u011fimden seni s\u00f6k\u00fcp atacak hi\u00e7bir g\u00fc\u00e7 bulamad\u0131m.<br \/>\nBir sonbahard\u0131 hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. Sararm\u0131\u015f yapraklar caddelerde tela\u015fl\u0131 insanlarla doluydu ve ben ilk kez hat\u0131rl\u0131yordum ya\u015faman\u0131n ne demek oldu\u011funu. Ku\u015flar\u0131n \u00f6tt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc fark ettim ve denizin mavi oldu\u011funu ve d\u00fcnyan\u0131n senin etraf\u0131nda d\u00f6nmedi\u011fini. Hala seni seviyorum, hala seni her g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmde y\u00fcre\u011fim katlan\u0131p u\u00e7acakm\u0131\u015f gibi hissediyorum. Ama art\u0131k biliyorum a\u015fk tek ki\u015filikte ya\u015fanabilir ve zaten sen bunu anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnden beri daha yak\u0131ns\u0131n bana. Beklide bekledi\u011fim buydu, g\u00fcvenmemdi kendime. \u015eimdi her \u015feyi fark ederek ya\u015f\u0131yorum ve her \u015feyin tad\u0131na var\u0131yorum ama hala bir yerim eksik biliyorsun. Ama bende biliyorum ki hi\u00e7bir \u015fey eksik kalmaz.<br \/>\nElman\u0131n bile iki yar\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131r ve benim eksik taraf\u0131m sensin.<\/p>\n<p>12.08.2008<br \/>\nDo\u00e7. Dr. Zerda ONURLU\u00a0\u00a0<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/www.kafiye.net\/\">www.kafiye.net<\/a><br \/>\n<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sen bahar\u0131n ya\u011fmurla getirdi\u011fi \u00f6zlemdin i\u00e7imdeki. Sen \u00e7i\u011f tanesi kadar saf ve ne oldu\u011funu asla anlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, yan\u0131md\u0131n ve denize d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp de \u0131slanmaktan korkutan bir sava\u015ft\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011fimde.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":95,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[26],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-157","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-makaledocdrzerdaonurlu"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/157","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/95"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=157"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/157\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=157"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=157"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=157"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}