{"id":113,"date":"2010-12-20T16:02:45","date_gmt":"2010-12-20T16:02:45","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/?p=113"},"modified":"2010-12-20T16:02:45","modified_gmt":"2010-12-20T16:02:45","slug":"dolandi-cevresinde-terk-edecegi-zamanlarin","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/?p=113","title":{"rendered":"Doland\u0131 \u00c7evresinde Terk Edece\u011fi Zamanlar\u0131n"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Doland\u0131 \u00c7evresinde Terk Edece\u011fi Zamanlar\u0131n<br \/>\n<\/strong>G\u00fcne\u015fin denizi kucaklamak i\u00e7in acele etti\u011fi, bahar\u0131n \u0131l\u0131k \u0131l\u0131k tenini ok\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131, ak\u015fam\u0131n h\u00fczn\u00fcn\u00fcn y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc maskeledi\u011fi gen\u00e7 bir kad\u0131n gecenin karal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kendi karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na katarak, ac\u0131lar\u0131 kendine siper yaparak sessizce oturuyordu.<br \/>\n\u00d6n\u00fcnde doldurulmay\u0131 bekleyen bo\u015f bir k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t, yazmak i\u00e7in acele eden tela\u015fl\u0131 bir kalem, yazmak istiyordu sadece yazmak b\u00f6l\u00fck p\u00f6r\u00e7\u00fck kelimeler u\u00e7uyordu havada\u2026<br \/>\nC\u00fcmleler b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f ne yazaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmeden nas\u0131l ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden sadece yazmak istiyordu\u2026<br \/>\nC\u00fcmle kurmay\u0131 m\u0131 bilmiyordu yoksa yazmay\u0131 m\u0131 unutmu\u015ftu?<br \/>\nG\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn ince \u00e7izgisine tak\u0131l\u0131p kald\u0131 g\u00f6zleri\u2026<br \/>\nBir an, bir kelime yakalay\u0131p yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131verdi bo\u015f k\u00e2\u011f\u0131da tela\u015fla\u2026<br \/>\n\u015eimdi anlam\u0131na, anlam veremedi\u011fi tek bir s\u00f6zc\u00fck, her \u015feyi anlatan tek bir c\u00fcmle, \u201csevdim\u201d kalemi dondu, gerisi gelmiyordu\u2026<br \/>\nYoksa her zaman yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi kalemiyle onu k\u0131rmaktan, kelimeleriyle onu incitmekten mi korkuyordu?<\/p>\n<p>Hangi karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n sabah\u0131yd\u0131, onu sevdi\u011fi g\u00fcnler, ne zaman sevmi\u015fti, ne \u00e7abuk k\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 y\u0131llar\u0131n pas tutmu\u015f zincirlerini\u2026<br \/>\nSeni seviyorum derken, gururunu nas\u0131lda yerlere serdi\u011fini, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden nas\u0131l kap\u0131l\u0131p gitmi\u015fti\u2026<br \/>\nDuygu dalgalar\u0131n\u0131n sel olup akan karanl\u0131k kollar\u0131na, \u201c\u00f6zledim\u201d dedi\u011finde mi terk etmi\u015fti ona y\u00fcre\u011fini\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Yoksa &#8216;seni merak ettim&#8217; dedi\u011finde mi terk edip gitmi\u015fti ruhu bedenini?<br \/>\nSadece sevmi\u015fti, fel\u00e7 olmu\u015f hayalleri vadilerde gezen liseli gibi, dokunmu\u015ftu y\u00fcre\u011fine ama \u015fimdi terk edeni terk ediyordu\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n, \u201ckelimelerinden ayr\u0131l\u0131k ak\u0131yor beni b\u0131rakmaz\u201d dedi\u011fi gibi gidiyordu\u2026<br \/>\nGit dedi\u011finde y\u00fcre\u011findeki alevi k\u00f6reltir gibi, git\/meee dedi\u011finde, m\u0131hlan\u0131p kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi, affetmi\u015fliklerini affetmek i\u00e7in\u2026<br \/>\n\u0130\u015fte \u015fimdi gidemedi\u011fi gitmelerinin eteklerine basarak d\u00f6nmemek \u00fczere gidiyordu\u2026<br \/>\nK\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f gururunun kalan son k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na birdamla g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131n\u0131, mendiline sararak kaleminden onu hat\u0131rlatan harfleri silkeleyip, ismini dudaklar\u0131na dokundurmadan, dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 sile sile elvedalara s\u0131\u011f\u0131nmadan, i\u015fte \u015fimdi gidiyordu.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn ince \u00e7izgisine terk etti Terk edip gideni, \u00e7\u00f6ken bedenini toplad\u0131 sessizce\u2026<br \/>\n\u00d6nce kalemini sonra kendini terk etti d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc olmayan bir yoldan, y\u00fcre\u011findeki adresi sile sile gitti gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u2026<br \/>\nS\u0131rt\u0131nda bir enkaz par\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2026 G\u00f6zlerinde ya\u015famad\u0131klar\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nD\u00f6n\u00fcp ard\u0131na bakt\u0131, unutaca\u011f\u0131 ne kadar \u015fey varsa, hepsi \u00fcst \u00fcste duruyordu\u2026<br \/>\nCesaretsiz ad\u0131mlarla ezdi ge\u00e7ti t\u00fcm ge\u00e7mi\u015fin s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, yosun kokusu, burun deliklerini,<br \/>\nkimsesizli\u011fin kokusu sard\u0131 avu\u00e7lar\u0131nda al\u0131\u015f\u0131lmad\u0131k yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n dokusu y\u00fcre\u011fini kanata kanata..<\/p>\n<p>Doland\u0131 \u00e7evresinde terk edece\u011fi zamanlar\u0131n, terk edilmi\u015f gururunu son k\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tak\u0131p koluna g\u00fcn d\u00f6n\u00fcmlerinin d\u00f6ng\u00fcs\u00fcne gidemezlerin gidi\u015fine hik\u00e2yeler b\u0131rakarak gitti ve bu son gidi\u015fle bitti\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Safiye \u00c7AKIR<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/www.kafiye.net\/\">www.kafiye.net<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Doland\u0131 \u00c7evresinde Terk Edece\u011fi Zamanlar\u0131n G\u00fcne\u015fin denizi kucaklamak i\u00e7in acele etti\u011fi, bahar\u0131n \u0131l\u0131k \u0131l\u0131k tenini ok\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131, ak\u015fam\u0131n h\u00fczn\u00fcn\u00fcn y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc maskeledi\u011fi gen\u00e7 bir kad\u0131n gecenin karal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kendi karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na katarak, ac\u0131lar\u0131 kendine siper yaparak sessizce oturuyordu. \u00d6n\u00fcnde doldurulmay\u0131 bekleyen bo\u015f bir k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t, yazmak i\u00e7in acele eden tela\u015fl\u0131 bir kalem, yazmak istiyordu sadece yazmak b\u00f6l\u00fck p\u00f6r\u00e7\u00fck kelimeler u\u00e7uyordu [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[34],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-113","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-oykusafiyecakir"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/113","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=113"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/113\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=113"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=113"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=113"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}