{"id":110,"date":"2010-12-20T15:58:49","date_gmt":"2010-12-20T15:58:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/?p=110"},"modified":"2010-12-20T15:58:49","modified_gmt":"2010-12-20T15:58:49","slug":"umutlarim-yarinlarda-kalmasin","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/?p=110","title":{"rendered":"Umutlar\u0131m Yar\u0131nlarda Kalmas\u0131n"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Umutlar\u0131m Yar\u0131nlarda Kalmas\u0131n<br \/>\n<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Masam\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda, evraklar\u0131n aras\u0131nda kendimi kaybetmi\u015ftim. Bir ara ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131m. Kap\u0131ya gayri ihtiyar\u0131 bakt\u0131m. Kap\u0131da bir bayan, sa\u011f\u0131nda ve solunda k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu. Elinde n\u00fcfus c\u00fczdan\u0131 ve bir ka\u011f\u0131t. K\u0131zlardan biri on \u00fc\u00e7 di\u011feri alt\u0131 ya\u015flar\u0131nda. Her ikisi de ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6stermiyor olduk\u00e7a \u00e7elimsiz g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyorlar\u2026 Biraz ezik, biraz mahcup g\u00fclen ve \u00e7ekingen g\u00f6zlerle, g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldim.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O bak\u0131\u015f an\u0131n\u0131n arkas\u0131ndaki kad\u0131n\u0131 yakalamak var ya! \u0130\u00e7ime bir \u015feyler akt\u0131, y\u00fcre\u011fim \u00e7iz etti. Neydi beni bu derece etkileyen ? Her g\u00fcn g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm s\u0131radan insanlardan biriydi belki ama; farkl\u0131 bir y\u00f6n\u00fc vard\u0131\u2026 Bir y\u00fcz\u00fc g\u00fclen, di\u011fer\u00a0 y\u00fcz\u00fc a\u011flayan;\u00a0 bir y\u00fcz\u00fcnde \u0131\u015f\u0131k di\u011fer y\u00fcz\u00fcnde karanl\u0131k; bir y\u00fcz\u00fcnde bolluk, di\u011fer y\u00fcz\u00fcnde yoksulluk kol\u00a0 geziyordu.\u00a0 Bir de y\u00fcre\u011fine s\u0131\u011fmayan sevgi denizi, di\u011fer y\u00fcre\u011finde derin dalgalar\u0131n a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131, a\u015f\u0131nd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yaral\u0131 y\u00fcrek sanc\u0131s\u0131, t\u00fcm\u00fcyle yans\u0131yordu y\u00fcre\u011fime \u2026Sanki y\u00fcre\u011finden, y\u00fcre\u011fime ayna tutulmu\u015ftu. T\u0131pk\u0131 \u015fark\u0131daki gibi ben ona\u00a0 tutuklu kald\u0131m\u2026 Saniyeler ge\u00e7ti. Belki \u00e7ok k\u0131sayd\u0131 o an. Ama ben onun y\u00fcre\u011fine akal\u0131 saatler olmu\u015ftu. Onun evreninde\u00a0 \u00e7oktan geziye \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u0130lmek ilmek \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcyordum onu.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Be\u015f k\u0131z annesi, daha otuz sekizinde \u2026 Y\u0131llar\u0131n de\u011fil belki ama ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n izlerini g\u00f6rebiliyorsunuz y\u00fcz\u00fcnde. Bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndaki sorular\u0131n, s\u00f6zlere d\u00f6k\u00fclmesine gerek duymuyorsunuz. Kitap gibi y\u00fcre\u011fini okuyabiliyorsunuz.\u00a0 O da sizi okuyor sanki. \u00c7ok zeki ama i\u015fe yaramam\u0131\u015f\u2026<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 -Erkek \u00e7ocuk mu\u00a0 arad\u0131n\u0131z ?<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 -Sorma be\u015f k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fum var. Hakl\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z. Cahildik, akl\u0131m\u0131z ermiyordu ,yol g\u00f6steren olmad\u0131.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 -Baba boyac\u0131l\u0131k yap\u0131yor. \u015euan \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131yor. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc hasta, bende hastay\u0131m asl\u0131na bakarsan\u0131z. Ye\u015fil kartl\u0131y\u0131z. E\u015fimin s\u00fcrekli kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131 ila\u00e7 var, bazen alabiliyoruz bazen de\u2026.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 -Neden be\u015f \u00e7ocuk ? Sorusu, kad\u0131n\u0131 bu a\u00e7\u0131klamalara g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyordu.<br \/>\nEzikli\u011fini, boynunu b\u00fckerek, g\u00f6zlerini ka\u00e7\u0131rarak, oturdu\u011fu koltukta\u00a0 daha da k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fclerek zaten belli ediyordu. \u00c7aresizlik her davran\u0131\u015f\u0131na yans\u0131yordu.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131k\u00e7a, insan\u0131m\u0131n nas\u0131l kendi haline terk edili\u015fini; ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7aresine bak; sald\u0131m cay\u0131ra mevlam kay\u0131ra anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n sonucunu g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00c7ocuklar bir \u015feylere a\u00e7. \u0130lgiye, bilgiye, sevgiye, paraya. Bedenleri, zihinleri a\u00e7. Bir \u015feylere susam\u0131\u015flar belli\u2026<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Anne s\u0131k\u0131larak s\u00f6z ediyor. Okula yazd\u0131raca\u011f\u0131z ama \u2026nas\u0131l diyeyim bilmem ki\u00a0 .<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Arif olan anlar misali. Ba\u015f\u0131mla onayl\u0131yorum. Anlad\u0131m diyorum. Bu zamana kadar n\u00fcfus ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karmam\u0131\u015flar. B\u00fct\u00fcn param\u0131 buna verdim diyor . Belli ki \u00e7ok koymu\u015f verdi\u011fi para\u00a0\u00a0 tam \u201d yirmi d\u00f6rt milyon\u201d<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Biraz daha yoklamak istiyorum. Gerekli evraklar\u0131 tamamlaman\u0131z laz\u0131m diyorum. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc hemen d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor. G\u00fclen g\u00f6zler kayboluyor. Derinlere dald\u0131\u2026 \u00c7ekip \u00e7\u0131karmam laz\u0131md\u0131. Kardelenlerin boyunlar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fckmeye hak\u0131m yoktu.\u00a0 Annesinin boynu zaten b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 -\u0130smini s\u00f6yler misin ? diyorum. Hemen canlan\u0131yor. De\u011ferli olma duygusu kendini hemen hissettiriyor.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 -Aysun \u2026 Aysun Demir, diyor. G\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7i g\u00fclerek. Biraz al\u00e7ak sesle.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 -Bak ben seni, duymuyor ve g\u00f6rm\u00fcyor olabilirim; bana kendini nas\u0131l hissettirebilirsin?diyorum. Hemen yan\u0131ma sokuluyor.\u00a0 G\u00f6zlerimin i\u00e7ine bak\u0131yor.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0 -Ger\u00e7ekten g\u00f6rm\u00fcyor musun ? diyor.\u00a0 G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyorum. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcks\u00fcn, b\u00fcy\u00fcmen laz\u0131m bu sene b\u00fcy\u00fcde gel demeye kalmadan, ablas\u0131 at\u0131l\u0131yor. Harflerin hepsini biliyor. S\u00f6zc\u00fckleri okuyor, diyor.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 -Abla cin gibi, g\u00f6zleri \u0131\u015f\u0131l \u0131\u015f\u0131l zeka f\u0131\u015fk\u0131r\u0131yor. Anne \u00fc\u00e7 \u00e7ocu\u011funun da di\u011fer okulda okuduklar\u0131n\u0131, g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fcn onlar\u0131n da bu okulda okumas\u0131n\u0131 istedi\u011fini, s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor. Ama imkanlar\u0131n\u0131n el vermedi\u011fini, g\u00fc\u00e7lerinin\u00a0\u00a0 yetmedi\u011fini\u00a0 anlat\u0131yor.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ablaya d\u00f6nerek :Ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 s\u0131n\u0131fta okuyorsun ?diye soruyorum. Alt\u0131nc\u0131 s\u0131n\u0131fa ge\u00e7ti\u011fini, okulundan ve \u00f6\u011fretmenlerinden memnun oldu\u011funu bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor. Derslerinin iyi oldu\u011funu da\u2026 Onunla da uzun uzun bak\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.. Yoksulluk her \u015feylerine yans\u0131m\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Onlar\u0131 i\u00e7ime almak sarmalamak ge\u00e7ti o an. \u00c7aresizliklerini unutturmak, yanaklar\u0131na g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fckler kondurmak. Kendine gel dedim. Polyannac\u0131l\u0131k oynama zaman\u0131 de\u011fil . \u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcm bulmal\u0131yd\u0131m \u2026<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131za d\u00f6nerek. Elimdeki ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131 uzatt\u0131m. Bunu al ve iki oda \u00f6tede\u00a0 bulunan ablaya verip fotokopisini \u00e7ektirmesini ve tekrar bana getirmesini istedim. Hemen at\u0131ld\u0131. Arife tarif gerekmez\u00a0 misali becerip geldi. Ablas\u0131 arkas\u0131ndan gidecek\u00a0 gibi oldu. \u0130zin vermedim.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Anne derdini dinleyen birini bulmu\u015fta ka\u00e7\u0131rmak istemezmi\u015f\u00e7esine soluksuz anlat\u0131yor hayat\u0131n\u0131. Her insan bir romand\u0131r, bir kitapt\u0131r, oku\u00a0 oku bitmez derler. Ben bu roman k\u0131sm\u0131na de\u011finmeyece\u011fim. As\u0131l konu ,\u00fczerinde durulmas\u0131 gereken \u015fu bence:<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 K\u0131z \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131za y\u00f6nelik be\u015f y\u0131ld\u0131r s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fclen kampanya var. \u00c7a\u011fda\u015f Ya\u015fam\u0131 Destekleme Derne\u011finin \u00f6nc\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde y\u00fcr\u00fct\u00fclen \u201cKARDELENLER\u201d projesi. On bin k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011funu okula kazand\u0131rmak. Hayat basamaklar\u0131n\u0131 ad\u0131m ad\u0131m \u00e7\u0131kmalar\u0131na yard\u0131mc\u0131 olmak, d\u00fcnyaya y\u00fczlerini d\u00f6nd\u00fcrmek. \u00c7ok g\u00fczel gurur, verici\u00a0 bir kampanya.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Derne\u011fin kurulu\u015f ama\u00e7lar\u0131ndan olan, bilin\u00e7li, e\u011fitimli, evrensel\u00a0 insan, kad\u0131n haklar\u0131na sayg\u0131l\u0131, \u00e7evreye duyarl\u0131, \u00e7a\u011fda\u015f bir toplum olu\u015fturulmas\u0131 ilkelerini g\u00f6n\u00fclden destekliyorum ama, eksik bence.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 As\u0131l y\u00fcre\u011fimi yakanda\u00a0 bu . Ya anne babalar ? Onlar ne olacak? Onlar ne zaman \u0131\u015f\u0131k olacak, karanl\u0131k odalara?&#8230; Onlar\u0131 nas\u0131l bilin\u00e7lendirece\u011fiz?<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Evlerine girebiliyor muyuz, ekmeklerini b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015febiliyor muyuz, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce d\u00fcnyalar\u0131na akabiliyor muyuz? Onlar bizleri anlayabiliyorlar m\u0131? \u00c7ocuklara kendimizi anlatabilmek yetmiyor. B\u00fcy\u00fcklere anlatmak \u00e7ok daha \u00f6nemli. T\u0131pk\u0131 \u00f6rnekte oldu\u011fu gibi<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ayn\u0131 s\u0131n\u0131f\u0131 payla\u015fan iki \u00f6\u011frenci.\u00a0 \u0130kisi de s\u0131n\u0131f\u0131n en \u00e7al\u0131\u015fkanlar\u0131. Birisi \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131 oluyor. Di\u011feri ise olduk\u00e7a zeki ama yoksul. Suat, fakirli\u011fin cahilli\u011fin ve ilgisizli\u011fin kurban\u0131. S\u0131n\u0131f \u00f6\u011fretmeni\u00a0 g\u00fcn\u00fcn birinde bunun yetene\u011fini fark eder\u00a0 ve kolundan tutar. Kendi \u00e7ocu\u011fu gibi her \u015feyiyle ilgilenir. Masraflar\u0131n\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131lar, har\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 verir. Maddi ve manevi deste\u011fini 8.s\u0131n\u0131fa kadar s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fcr. Suat\u2019\u0131n hayalleri vard\u0131r. G\u00fcn\u00fcn birinde belediye ba\u015fkan\u0131\u00a0 olacak. Evsizlere ev yapacak, dev futbol\u00a0 sahalar\u0131 kuracak, her \u00e7ocu\u011fa bisiklet arma\u011fan edecek. Ama \u00f6nce bir fabrikas\u0131 olacakt\u0131. Suat bu hayallere her g\u00fcn dalard\u0131. Bir g\u00fcn \u00f6\u011fretmeni\u00a0 o ilden gider. Tayin olur. \u00c7ocuk yine ba\u015far\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fcr ama\u2026\u00a0 Ya aile ?\u00a0Evin ge\u00e7imi i\u00e7in\u00a0 para laz\u0131m, okuyup da ne olacaks\u0131n? \u00c7al\u0131\u015facaks\u0131n ,zaten y\u0131llarca haz\u0131r yedin i\u00e7tin. Hadi bakal\u0131m i\u015fe. Okul kar\u0131n doyurmuyor. Diyerek \u00f6\u011frencinin okul hayat\u0131n\u0131 bitirirler. \u0130kilem aras\u0131nda kalan Suat\u00a0 k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre sonra baliye arkas\u0131ndan uyu\u015fturucuya al\u0131\u015f\u0131r ve ya\u015fam\u0131 k\u00f6pr\u00fc altlar\u0131na akar.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dile\u011fim sorunlar\u0131n bir par\u00e7as\u0131 olmak de\u011fil sizin hedeflerinizden biri olan \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn bir par\u00e7as\u0131 olmakt\u0131r.<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bat\u0131da\u00a0 kardelenler yok mu? \u0130zmir\u2019de, Manisa\u2019da, Mu\u011fla\u2019da, Bal\u0131kesir\u2018de, \u00c7anakkale&#8217;de, K\u00fctahya\u2019da, Tekirda\u011f\u2019da, Bursa\u2019da\u2026\u00a0 Buradaki\u00a0\u00a0 kardelenlere kim ellerini uzatacak?<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Samiye SEZEN-SAYIN<br \/>\n\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 BURSA- 23 \/ 08 \/ 2005<br \/>\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <a href=\"http:\/\/www.kafiye.net\/\">www.kafiye.net<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Umutlar\u0131m Yar\u0131nlarda Kalmas\u0131n \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Masam\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda, evraklar\u0131n aras\u0131nda kendimi kaybetmi\u015ftim. Bir ara ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131m. Kap\u0131ya gayri ihtiyar\u0131 bakt\u0131m. Kap\u0131da bir bayan, sa\u011f\u0131nda ve solunda k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu. Elinde n\u00fcfus c\u00fczdan\u0131 ve bir ka\u011f\u0131t. K\u0131zlardan biri on \u00fc\u00e7 di\u011feri alt\u0131 ya\u015flar\u0131nda. 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