{"id":10099,"date":"2014-02-27T09:35:18","date_gmt":"2014-02-27T07:35:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/?p=10099"},"modified":"2014-02-27T09:35:18","modified_gmt":"2014-02-27T07:35:18","slug":"dualarimin-icinde-kerelerce-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/?p=10099","title":{"rendered":"DUALARIMIN \u0130\u00c7\u0130NDE\/ KERELERCE"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>DUALARIMIN \u0130\u00c7\u0130NDE\/ KERELERCE<\/p>\n

\u00a0\/\/\/G\u00f6zlerin g\u00f6zlerimdeydi \u00f6nce\u2026 Parmaklar\u0131n\u0131 emiyordun b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u00e7abayla\u2026 Ve sesin kulaklar\u0131mda \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131k\u00e7a \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131yordu \u0130lda\u2026\/\/\/<\/em><\/p>\n

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Seninle bir \u015fehirleraras\u0131 otob\u00fcs\u00fcn arka koltuklar\u0131nda kesi\u015fti yollar\u0131m\u0131z. Baban\u0131n kuca\u011f\u0131ndayd\u0131n saatlerdir ve t\u00fcm yolcular\u0131 rahats\u0131z etmek pahas\u0131na, hatta akci\u011ferlerini nefessiz b\u0131rakmak pahas\u0131na ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131k\u00e7a ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131yordun\u2026 Korkuyormuydun \u0130lda?<\/em><\/p>\n

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K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u0130lda”yla hikayemiz b\u00f6yle ba\u015flad\u0131. On iki saatlik bir yolculu\u011fun ilk d\u00f6rt saatinde \u0130lda”n\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131 kulaklar\u0131mdayd\u0131, di\u011fer sekiz saatindeyse bedeni kollar\u0131mda. Nas\u0131l m\u0131 oldu?\u2026 Do\u011frusunu isterseniz \u0130lday\u0131 ilk g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmd\u00fc bu. T\u00fcm bebekler gibi yolculu\u011fu sevmiyor sand\u0131m \u00f6nce\u2026 Hepimiz gibi evini ve rahat yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ar\u0131yor d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesine kap\u0131l\u0131p rahats\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 buna ba\u011flad\u0131m\u2026 Oysa onun s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 bamba\u015fkayd\u0131\u2026 Bense bunu \u00e7ok ge\u00e7 anlayacakt\u0131m\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

Otob\u00fcs ilk mola verdi\u011fimiz dinlenme tesisinden kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, \u0130lda”n\u0131n a\u011flamas\u0131 da \u015fiddetini art\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u2026 \u00d6nce k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n elindeki \u015feker ve sak\u0131zlardan g\u00f6nderdim\u2026 Ama babas\u0131 geri \u00e7evirdi\u2026 Belli ki defalarca bunlarla kand\u0131rmay\u0131 denemi\u015fti. Y\u00fcre\u011fimi par\u00e7al\u0131yordu h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131. \u00c7aresizlikle \u0130lda”ya uzatt\u0131m kollar\u0131m\u0131, ayakta onu oyalamak i\u00e7in asl\u0131nda susturmak i\u00e7in hoplatan babas\u0131na do\u011fru d\u00f6n\u00fcp\u2026 Bana gelir misin dedim g\u00f6zlerine bakarak \u2026 \u00c7\u0131lg\u0131nlar gibi a\u011fl\u0131yordu gelmesine pek ihtimal vermiyordum a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131. Bir an sustu ve bana bakt\u0131. Sonra birden t\u00fcm v\u00fccuduyla bana do\u011fru e\u011filip ellerini bana uzatt\u0131\u2026 \u0130\u015fte o an kavu\u015ftuk \u0130ldayla. O an s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z de\u011fdi birbirine. K\u0131sa dalgal\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131 o an mis kokusunu b\u0131rakt\u0131 burnuma. Elleri \u0130lda”n\u0131n elleri o s\u0131rada d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc avucuma.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00d6nce k\u0131z\u0131mla oynad\u0131 \u0130lda\u2026 Koltuk tvnin kablolar\u0131yla ve kulaklar\u0131yla oynad\u0131 dakikalarca. Biz onu g\u00fcld\u00fcrmek i\u00e7in \u015faklabanl\u0131klar yapt\u0131k ama\u00e7 susturmakt\u0131 ya\u2026 Ama sonra, sonra o bizi g\u00fcld\u00fcrd\u00fc hep\u2026 T\u00fcrl\u00fc komiklikler yapt\u0131 durdu, minicik ama bir o kadar engin zekas\u0131yla… Oynad\u0131, g\u00fcld\u00fc, g\u00fcld\u00fcrd\u00fc \u0130lda\u2026 En sonunda yoruldu\u2026 Babas\u0131 bize verdi\u011fi rahats\u0131zl\u0131kla mahcup \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 \u0130lda”y\u0131\u2026 Ama o itti babas\u0131n\u0131 ve kollar\u0131n\u0131 boynuma dolad\u0131. Anne dedi m\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131yla, sonra birka\u00e7 kez daha, anne\u2026 Anne de\u011fil teyze diye d\u00fczeltecek oldum daha anne ile teyze aras\u0131ndaki fark\u0131 bilecek ya\u015fta de\u011fildi ya, \u0131srar da etmedim.<\/em><\/p>\n

Sabaha dek kollar\u0131mda uyudu \u0130lda. Kimi anlar uyan\u0131p a\u011flayacak oldu\u2026 Sallad\u0131m uyuyana kadar\u2026 Kuca\u011f\u0131mdan kayd\u0131 kimi an \u00e7ekip kollar\u0131ma ald\u0131m. Uyan\u0131kken \u0131srarla \u00e7\u0131karamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m montunu terledi\u011fi i\u00e7in uyumas\u0131n\u0131 f\u0131rsat bilip \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m. \u0130kinci kolunu \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131rken uyand\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karmaktan vazge\u00e7tim. Her uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131mda s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131l\u0131p \u00f6pt\u00fcm. Birka\u00e7 kez muavin geldi Abla Allah senden raz\u0131 olsun dedi. Yolculuklarda ayaklar\u0131m\u0131 uzatamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in hep kramp sorunu ya\u015fayan ben, \u0130lda uyanacak diye k\u0131p\u0131rdamad\u0131m adeta, nefes bile almad\u0131m, buna ra\u011fmen sabah uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda hala din\u00e7tim.. Kuca\u011f\u0131mda minicik saf bir g\u00fczellik nefes al\u0131yordu. Parma\u011f\u0131 yine a\u011fz\u0131ndayd\u0131\u2026 Sa\u00e7lar\u0131 hafif\u00e7e aln\u0131na k\u0131vr\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u2026 Kirpiklerinin g\u00f6lgesi y\u00fcz\u00fcnde dansediyordu. Nefesinde huzur kokuyordu. Otob\u00fcs son yolcular\u0131n\u0131 indirmeye haz\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130lda”y\u0131 babas\u0131 gelip ald\u0131 kollar\u0131mdan ve apar topar giydirmeye koyuldu tabi ben de \u00f6n koltuktaki k\u0131zlar\u0131m\u0131 uyand\u0131r\u0131p haz\u0131rlamaya koyuldum. \u0130lda uykunun mahmurlu\u011fu ile bana bak\u0131yordu\u2026 Elimi sallay\u0131p ho\u015f\u00e7a kal \u0130lda dedim. Ve o an olanlar oldu \u0130lda bast\u0131 \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2026 Hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015flarla a\u011fl\u0131yordu arkamdan\u2026 \u00d6pemedim bile son kez o gamzeli yanaklar\u0131ndan\u2026 Kokusunu \u00e7ekemedim i\u00e7ime\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

\u0130lda”n\u0131n as\u0131l hikayesini anlatay\u0131m \u015fimdi size\u2026 \u0130lda”n\u0131n annesi ve babas\u0131 ayr\u0131lma arefesindeymi\u015f me\u011fer ve babas\u0131 mahkeme i\u00e7in geliyormu\u015f bulundu\u011fumuz ile. \u0130lda”y\u0131 da annesine vermek i\u00e7in getirmi\u015f o kadar yol yan\u0131nda. \u0130lda”n\u0131n bir s\u00fcredir \u00e7ekti\u011fi anne hasreti d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f onu kollar\u0131ma\u2026 Beni annesi sanmas\u0131 kimbilir ne kadar zamand\u0131r g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi annesinin y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc unutmu\u015f olmas\u0131ndand\u0131 belki de\u2026 Ama eksikli\u011fini bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc dolduramamas\u0131ndan. Annesine kavu\u015facak diye i\u00e7im i\u00e7ime s\u0131\u011fmad\u0131 ama bir yandan da babas\u0131z kalacak olmas\u0131 burktu i\u00e7imi, t\u00fcm g\u00fcn yol yorgunu olmama ra\u011fmen uyuyamad\u0131m\u2026 G\u00fcn\u00fcn ilerleyen saatlerdeki derslerde de hep akl\u0131m ondayd\u0131\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

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\u0130lda a\u011flayacaks\u0131n diye korktu\u011fum i\u00e7in el bile sallayamad\u0131m sana hatta y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc \u00e7evirip bakamad\u0131m bile ayr\u0131l\u0131rken\u2026 Beni affet k\u0131z\u0131m\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

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Ben bir gecelik annen\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

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\/\/\/\/Bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan uzakla\u015ft\u0131m \u00f6nce, d\u00fc\u015flerin koynuna b\u0131rakt\u0131m seni\u2026 S\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n kald\u0131 i\u00e7imde\u2026 G\u00f6zlerinin rengi kar\u0131\u015f\u0131rken kaderime\u2026 B\u00fcy\u00fcyeceksin zaman\u0131n yapraklar\u0131nda… Dualar\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7inde kerelerce ho\u015f\u00e7akal \u0130lda\u2026.\/\/\/<\/p>\n

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Seninle bir \u015fehirleraras\u0131 otob\u00fcs\u00fcn arka koltuklar\u0131nda kesi\u015fti yollar\u0131m\u0131z. Baban\u0131n kuca\u011f\u0131ndayd\u0131n saatlerdir ve t\u00fcm yolcular\u0131 rahats\u0131z etmek pahas\u0131na, hatta akci\u011ferlerini nefessiz b\u0131rakmak pahas\u0131na ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131k\u00e7a ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131yordun\u2026 Korkuyormuydun \u0130lda?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[274],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-10099","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-siirlergulseneker"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10099","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10099"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10099\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10099"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10099"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kafiye.net\/2011\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10099"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}